The appointment went quite well. We will be meeting again next week and I hope they are positive about this event. God, you know how badly I need this deal. Please make it happen. I hope the clients will stop giving me false hopes again and again. I feel so demoralize not being able to close it. I need good news next week. Please…

I am starting school on the 28 Nov, Wednesday. I hope I would score Ace again this time. Please give me the strength to work & school at the same time at the very state when I am not as fit as before. Why the hell they move so far away! One sad thing, Shida won’t be able to join us due to her pregnancy and she is going on maternity leave in December or maybe January. I think I am too used being with her. Oh No! Fark, 3 months… What a long holiday! I need a long holiday too. Maybe I should be pregnant too, with a baby cat. Hahah! One thing which I am very satisfied, I am not under company sponsor instead it will be my own hard earn money. I do not want to have any hindrance in the near future. I am enduring the politics, the fat idiots which disgust me each time I see them, the gossip and rumors by those who got nothing better to do.

Sometimes I wonder, I had never mix so much with the rest, I talk less at work with them except the other 3. I do not joke unnecessarily with anyone, I did my part and I am a fast worker. I belief no one would want to sabotage their own rice bowl. Despite of all that, they somehow manage to make up a lot of untrue stories. Hypocrisies… I guess it’s life lah.

I am also glad that I made a decision to reject one of their offer. We don’t have to owe each other anything.