I am not perfect

I am afraid of changes. I am afraid to fail. I don’t know what I should do. As much as I want to go, I feel half-hearted at the same time. I really don’t know what’s holding me back. I have made it this far but I don’t know why I am hesitating.

Sometimes I wish I would just be a kid again. No Worries, No Burdens, No Arguments, No Misunderstandings, No Responsibilities, Nothing at all. Being in this situation really sucks. God, tell me what’s the best for my future. Tell me in my dreams… I am really stuck right now.

When you love something or somebody, you feel like you are in heaven. But when you start to get sick of something or somebody, everything they do looks ugly and sucks. How I really wish that people won’t have to give me such challenges in my already stressful life? How I really wish that people can be nicer after so much I have done? How I really wish people can accept my flaws when I can accept ALL their flaws? It’s totally unfair… Why do they always think that they did nothing and you are the only person who keeps screwing things up? It’s nothing but heart aches…

The trip to Paris is postponed till next year… I am so disappointed! I have been looking forward to it… So sad.

New pictures will be up soon. I like the place. It’s just so peaceful. Sometimes I just wish I am one of them…