I am not perfect
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I am afraid of changes. I am afraid to fail. I don’t know what I should do. As much as I want to go, I feel half-hearted at the same time. I really don’t know what’s holding me back. I have made it this far but I don’t know why I am hesitating.
Sometimes I wish I would just be a kid again. No Worries, No Burdens, No Arguments, No Misunderstandings, No Responsibilities, Nothing at all. Being in this situation really sucks. God, tell me what’s the best for my future. Tell me in my dreams… I am really stuck right now.
When you love something or somebody, you feel like you are in heaven. But when you start to get sick of something or somebody, everything they do looks ugly and sucks. How I really wish that people won’t have to give me such challenges in my already stressful life? How I really wish that people can be nicer after so much I have done? How I really wish people can accept my flaws when I can accept ALL their flaws? It’s totally unfair… Why do they always think that they did nothing and you are the only person who keeps screwing things up? It’s nothing but heart aches…
The trip to Paris is postponed till next year… I am so disappointed! I have been looking forward to it… So sad.
New pictures will be up soon. I like the place. It’s just so peaceful. Sometimes I just wish I am one of them…
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Yes girl. quite hilarious but its the fact! 
you should do solat istkharah.
Istikhaarah is to seek guidance from Allah when one is faced with a problem to which no solution is apparent.
Whenever a person is faced with a difficult problem, or becomes hesitant in making a decision and his knowledge of the matter is insufficient to guide him then after seeking advice from trusted friends he should turn to Allah and beseech His grace. He should willingly and with an open heart and mind supplicate for divine guidance and ask for direction so that the problem is solved in his own best interest. The Du’aa at such an occasion is called Istikhaarah.
Istikhaarah is in fact an invaluable teaching of Rasulullah (Sallallaahu Alayhi Wasallam) with which the Muslims have been favoured. This blessing could give solace to many for all times to come. It is related in the Hadith that Rasulullah (SAW) use to teach the Istikhaarah to the Sahaabah (RA) like the Qur’an is taught to children. In another Hadith it is stated that ‘He does not fail who makes Istikhaarah and he does not regret who makes Mashwarah (consultation).
In the Masnoon Istikhaarah, after one has carried out his responsibility as best as one can, one should hand over the entire matter and oneself to the limitless knowledge of Allah Ta’ala. By resorting to Istikhaarah one is now retrieved of making a decision on ones own.
Whenever counsel is sought from a respectable and experienced person, it is expected that he will give good advise and assist to the best of his ability. Similarly Istikhaarah is to seek counsel that the all-Knowing and Merciful Allah? Once Istikhaarah is made then Allah Ta’ala will surely guide him to do what is best for him.
Now there can be no perplexity. Only that will happen which Allah Ta’ala wills and which is good for ones own sake though one may not be able to see it immediately. It is not necessary that one must experience or see an evident change or vision. Allah Ta’ala alone knows what is best for His servants. It is related in the Hadith that ‘Success and good tidings for the son of Aadam (Insaan) is in performing Istikhaarah and his misfortune lies in not making Istikhaarah’.
When making Istikhaarah begin with performing two Rakaats Nafl Salaat. Then with all sincerity recite the following Du’a.
Allaahumma innee astakheeruka bi ilmika wa-astaqdiruka biqudratika wa-as’aluka min fadhlika al-adheem. Fa innaka taqdiru walaa aqdiru. Wa ta’lamu walaa a’alamu wa anta allaamul ghuyoob. Allaahumma in kunta ta’lamu anna haadhal-amr khayrun liy fiy deeniy wa-ma’aashiy wa-aaqibat amriy, fa’qdruhliy wa-yassirh liy thumma baarik liy feehi. Wa in-kunta ta’lamu anna haadhal amr sharrun liy fiy deeniy wa-ma’aashiy was-’aaqibat amriy. Fa asrifh annee wa-srif ‘anhu. Wa aqdurh liyal khayr hayth kaana thumma a-rdhiniy bihee
hey baby, it works. thanks a million. love you.
Hmm, that’s something I’ve never heard of. Thx for sharing!
And yanni, Paris isn’t gonna run away you know
Just like Ms Swan had mentioned…
Anyway life is all about changes. Don’t be afraid of it…good luck.
afraid of making the wrong choice. but im feeling better. i know what i want already. thanks hani.
no one is perfect Yanni.
fear nothing but fear itself!
(chehbahhh..mcm faham sehh makchique)
trip postpone ajer..bukan cancel kan? masih bolih pergi Paris kann??
ada org nak pergi Geylang pon tak sempat! ni kan pulak Paris…
dah dah..jgn susah hati…cheer up!
i nak pergi this year. but because of some urgent matters, they cant. so next year only.. but one good thing, i can really save , once im there, thats it!!! im going to spend like nobody business. tapi i still got another holiday trip with teni. maybe in april. heheh, tu lah, i belum pergi geylang dah berapa bulan ni…
i already cheer up… heheh..
I think you are really great! Good luck!