It’s too fast and I am getting older and older each year. Oh No!!!! I want to be forever 25, it’s the perfect age. At 25, you are legal to do everything except for crimes lah, duh. When I read back my past entries especially this entry – Goodbye 2007, I realised that I am so lucky and fortunate to accomplish and got almost everything that I wanted.

One year ago, I wrote this in my entry.

In 2008
- Either have a good working environment or I will strive to get a better one Checked
- Quit Smoking lah yanni…. ooopsss
- Go for a long holiday before my 2nd semester, Australia or Thailand Checked – but to bali and langkawi instead
- New blog theme which is currently stuck so it will give me the mood to blog again as I am getting lazier No time yet!
- New Nikkor lens (currently aiming for 2 of them, superb one!) Checked – but I have sold those lens due to family issues. I still have some but no worries, I will get them back again!
- Happy (Happier I mean) home n healthy cats Hmmm…
- More sales for GemByGems (Thank u for the support y’all have given this year!) Checked – Yes thank you once again!
- I shall not disclose this one Inshaallah, it will come true in few years time…
- For me and god to know Eerrmmm don’t know what I was referring to
- Stay away from _ fill in the blanks —– _ & meet _ what what what what! _ Huh!
- Driving license Checked – Yes on time!
- Less problems than 2007 (2007 problems are definitely lesser than 2006) More problems only…
- No PMS Mood (How I Wish!) Ok lah, so far so good.
- Shopping every month Time to save up $!
- Pass all modules To defer
- Cat House (hmmm…) or Donate some $ to the unfortunate ones (yes sure!) One day it will come true

Of course, I didn’t get everything but life has been nice for me. And I am contented. The only thing which doesn’t change is problem. I have more family issues in 2008 and it’s like never ending story. When I browse through my photo collections of my family, I got really upset.

Teni ever said that I am a very strong girl. He ever wrote a letter to me that made me cried on the spot while reading it.

He wrote ~ “I truly admire your relentless ability to confront and face every challenges and problems. And I also admire your love for the people you love as well as the animals you love. No matter how much I try, I know that no amount of repayments will ever be enough after all that you have done for me. The only thing that I can do is to love you more and more…”

Aww, Teni… Your letter never failed to make me feel so emotional. No guy had ever said that to me before. And cos of you, I am who I am today. If you had not message me in nightlife.sg few years ago, or if you had not chatted with me in MSN and exchanged numbers which I had never ever gave my number to strangers before especially via msn, I don’t know what will happen to me. I think I will still be enjoying in those clubs, drinking, dancing and will land myself in deeper trouble. When I think back of those days and my previous lifestyle, I really felt so disgusted.

Everything happen for a reason… And I now know the true meanings of family, friend, sadness and happines…

He also wrote to me which made me cried more ~ “We will be just fine. As long as we learn and take note of the mistakes we make today, we will be a step closer to a brighter future. As everyday passes when I’m with you, it’s a day closer to the day when we will eventually get married. I know that you will be an outstanding wife and mother. I know that you will take good care of my wants and needs better than anyone else.”

Oh no, I really missed him. We have been together for almost 4 years. That’s the longest clean healthy relationship record that I ever had. Thank you for being you, Teni…

My friends, my relatives, colleagues and ex-colleagues kept asking me when is my turn going to be. Everyone please, stop asking me this question. One more time, you ask me, I swear I will not answer. Haha! Look, I am only 25, I am still young. There are so many things that I have yet to achieve and it’s really not the time to get married. You think so easy ah. You need to invest your time, your money, emotions and yourself. Everything with no silly mistakes and with more patience. Simple said – I am not ready yet. Or maybe I am just scared that something bad might happen. I don’t know. Just not the time yet. When the time comes, it will come and I will announce it to the whole world ok!

This will be my new list.

In 2009,
1. I really want to quit smoking.
2. Complete my Ikrar and move to Qur'an. It took me forever.. Yes, I am learning and still learning how to read.
3. Long Term Career in Hays. More placements in 2009. Constant results.
4. Happy Family and Healthy Cats.
5. Less problems than 2008. Please allah...
6. Clear my outstanding issues as soon as possible.
7. Start saving. Invest in diamonds, gold coins (not the S$1 gold coin) or just save as per normal lah!
8. 2 Vacation trips to anywhere.
9. Nissan Murano Black Label SUV - how to save money like that.
10. Earn more in blogging.
11. Gem By Gems to have more sale and will be more recognised in the local muslim market.
12. New Blog Layout - That depends on my time and mood.
13. To get my Nikkor lens back. And to change my D80 to D90 or D700 - how to save $ like that!
14. To own a personal photo studio.
15. To stay fit and healthy. And I pray for all my loved ones to be healthy, fit, and problems free.